The small island nation on the edge of everything.

It's been an exhausting couple of days with the results of the EU referendum coming in from late Thursday through to early Friday morning. I woke up just before 3am on Friday morning to check the results so far and saw that the Leave camp had a very slight lead at 50.1%. There were still 210 counts to go so I figured there was plenty of time for it to swing back the other way. When I looked again at 6:30 in the morning to check whether a definitive result had been reached, I was genuinely shocked and upset to find that the Leave camp had actually won, leaving the future of this country highly uncertain.

I continue to be shocked and upset following the result, not least due to the continuation of lies and propaganda which is still being spread about the future trajectory of the UK, together with a string of broken promises. Unfortunately what's done is done and we must now put all this energy to good use and make sure not to lose sight of who we are and where we want to go from here. As a friend recently said, it's not the people who voted leave out of a genuine belief that things would change for the better, it's those who voted out of fear and ignorance, which is a significant proportion of the population.

I struggle to accept in the 21st century that as an island nation, we want to turn our backs on Europe and the rest of the world and go it alone, especially in a time where more and more common problems will be faced by us all. The people who take things for granted such as European holidays and cars, travel benefits and other economic measures will soon find that things aren't going to go to their advantage. Someone else told me that I don't remember what life was like before the EU, implying that I wouldn't be able to appreciate why they want to turn back the clock.

The issue for me is that clocks don't turn back, except at the start of summer when we lose an hour (all rather pointlessly). Some of my friends from outside the UK already say they now feel like outsiders here, if they didn't already. If it's any consolation to them, I feel like an outsider too and am disappointed when I see how many people have voted purely from an immigration and/or a white supremacist point of view - the two aren't mutually exclusive.

Perhaps it's time to consider moving to Scotland - a country which is sure to go independent the next time a referendum is held, and will then make a move to join the European Union themselves, which will no doubt be accepted. Better to have part of the whole than none at all right? The key issue here is not that coming out of the EU is wrong per se (although I think it is) but the motivations for doing so, which in a lot of cases haven't come from a profound sense of reason. I genuinely worry about the future path of the UK now, and will be watching with interest (not in a positive sense) what happens next. Life just got a lot less colourful.